For two years I searched university libraries for Merlin's Irish double through the footnotes of a book — a mad king in the trees of Ulster I could never quite put my hands on — and then gave up.
Two years later, while I was searching my own surname for family history, a packet arrived from Ireland with a story inside it: Buile Suibhne. The Madness of Sweeney. The untraceable madman I had chased through Tolstoy had been in my own name the whole time. The two threads of my life had converged, leaving me wondering if I had been searching for myself the entire time.
This site is the answer to that question — a prose retelling of the old tale, an atlas of the ancestry beneath it, and an attempt to take up the office the name has always carried. Why this author → · The full account →
Flight Path
This site is one argument, walked in six stations. An old Irish tale — a cursed king driven into the trees, given poetry in exchange for everything else — is read as a progression: the pattern the tale sets down, the inheritance that carried it in a name, the living claim of that name today, the seeing that begins every quest, the road that answers the seeing, and the practice waiting at the end of it. The stations run in order, and each door also opens on its own.
I · The Pattern
Story
The central work: novel excerpts and essays from my prose retelling of Buile Suibhne.
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II · The Inheritance
Ancestry
Historical and mythic context: texts, places, and the MacSweeney inheritance around the Sweeney tradition.
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III · The Embodiment
Sweeney
Why this author: Merlin in the tree, the name in the bloodline of claim, and the 1995–1997 recognition that started the work.
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IV · The Revelation
Vision
The appearing that comes before any quest — light on the faces, the veiled vessel, and sight given according to measure.
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V · The Response
Quest
The hall empties into the wilderness — by choice or by curse — and the road is the same.
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VI · The Practice
Take Flight
Join the scriptorium — the four wings, a rule of craft, and the invitation to find your own connection in the work.
Enter the scriptorium →What to expect
Each station keeps the same three layers. The page itself is a map — the tradition and the scholarship behind it, sources listed, contested claims marked as positions rather than smoothed into fact. Beneath each map stands a keystone essay that makes the station's argument at full length. And beside the keystones runs Identity: six first-person essays, the life that walks the same arc without announcing every parallel. The central work is a prose retelling of Buile Suibhne, still under the copyist's hand — unfinished leaves are set down in the open and marked with a scribal note, and finished work is called in through the last door, Take Flight.
A Life's Path
Six creative nonfiction essays under the heading Identity — the life that rhymes with the keystone readings of Buile Suibhne, without announcing every parallel. Drafts in progress.
I · 1980
Becoming Anchorman In progress
Eighth grade, 1980 — auditioning only for Anchorman in The Idiot Box, and recognizing the guardian archetype that would keep returning: the long white beard, the book against the machine, the keeper of the word.
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The Quest for Merlin In progress
University, 1995 — Tolstoy's Quest for Merlin, the hunt for O'Keeffe, and the 1997 surname search that delivered Buile Suibhne inside a packet from Ireland. How Merlin's Irish double was waiting under my own name.
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The Curse of Sweeney In progress
After the name attached — PTSD and the frenzy, exile and isolation, addiction and liminal sight, and the desert fathers' mercy that paralleled Moling's reception of Suibhne. Why retelling his story is, metaphorically, retelling my own.
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Love of the Beautiful In progress
Philokalia means love of the beautiful. Finding the book, reading it against the uncreated light, and recognising in three faces the same light shown according to what each could bear.
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The Wayfarer's Chapel In progress
How and when we met, our wedding at the Wayfarer's Chapel, and the journey toward a home — mercy begun as a life built after the wilderness instruction to forgive.
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Seraphim's Wings In progress
Finding a man who had taken his life in the woods; conversion to Orthodoxy; taking St Seraphim as patron; the flight of the soul and a red-tailed hawk — the other diptych meaning of Sweeney in Flight.
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